When words get in the way…

Sometimes I spend lots of time… reading and writing and thinking…

And sometimes that takes me further away from where I need to be…

Sometimes…

Silence is needed…

Sometimes… I need to just lay down colour and let it do what it will do…

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Cards from Path of the Soul Destiny Cards by Cheryl Lee Harnish

What use has a Lion for a rose…

Sometimes images strike my eye quite loudly…
Such as this one did yesterday…

XI Strength ~ The Wild Unknown Tarot

XI Strength ~ The Wild Unknown Tarot

I seemed to see such sadness in this creature’s eyes… this weary looking King of the Beasts…

How did that rose get into his mouth? I guess he was drawn in by its beauty and its scent…

But to pick it… and take it from where it dwells… is to kill it… and beauty and scent will soon fade and decay…

Yet he firmly clenches it between his teeth… Is he afraid to let go… afraid of what he thinks he’ll lose…

There is no colour to the rose…

The colour lies in the Sun that warms his back and there in the sign of infinity that marks his brow…

Why does he look outside of himself for beauty?

And that stem across his tongue… surely that is heavy with thorns that cause him pain…

What mastery is there in controlling self-inflicted pain…

Why carry that?

How easily to say no more…

No need to  roar…

Just drop…

False treasure to the floor…

With gentle opening of a jaw…

Don’t follow me… I’m not going where you’re going…

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Hello Hopsters! 😀

So… we’ve been asked to talk about quantum leaps in our understanding of Tarot

An interesting point to ponder…

My understanding shifts and changes on a constant basis. I consider it to be an evolving process as my mind makes feedback loops from what I read and what I see in the world around me… little nudges and tweaks dotted with the odd a-ha! moment every so often. I’ve got a few ways of thinking about Tarot that I use regularly and I wrote about them fairly recently (click here if you’re nosy 😀 )

But quantum leaps…

Well… I guess they have come when I’ve thrown myself out of my comfort zone and into something that makes me think – Oh! F**K!!! Why are you doing this?! Such as my first proper paid reading job (as in being paid cash rather than cakes or books or scarves or trinkets or flowers or  favours…) I got a phone call and the voice on the other end said – Am I right in thinking you read tarot?

Yes…

Then a conversation followed where they asked me to read at a psychic supper and I could hear myself saying yeah… no problem! while my head was screaming – Shut up you moron!!! What are you doing????

So… my first paid gig was back to back readings for 30 people, which I managed to somehow survive and I went home to  high five myself, then wonder why I’d spent the whole week before mad dashing to the toilet (Virgo digestive system… sorry TMI! 😀 )

Elemental Tarot ~ Caroline Smith

Elemental Tarot ~ Caroline Smith

I do have a bit of a habit of throwing myself in at the deep end or maybe putting my head in the tiger’s jaw… I will often say yes before I give myself time to talk myself out of it because I’m quite dangerous when I think and I can talk myself out of anything… But mostly these days, my conversation with myself goes along the lines of  – What’s the worst thing than can happen? Will you die?

Will I die?

No… (which on a side note is how I ended up doing stand up and also is why I’ll never end up skydiving… 😀 )

But I guess my first quantum leap in understanding Tarot came from within the pages of this book…

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This is the first Tarot book I ever bought… I struggled to find a book… I’d seen a couple but they made no sense as the ones that crossed my path were all geared up for RWS… and I didn’t have a RWS… no… my first deck was that Elemental Tarot (up above) and it has its own system… But I saw this book and opened it and it was filled with pages with a big blank rectangle for you to sit your own card on… It claimed to work for every deck… So I grabbed it…

Now… when this blog hop topic came up, it occurred to me that I’d never heard anybody mention this book or met anybody who had used it, so I decided to Google it ( a luxury unavailable in my embryonic tarot reading life… 😀 ) And I had to laugh out loud as I heard it hailed as…

THE WORST BOOK ON TAROT EVER WRITTEN

and blimey! even people calling for it to be burnt!!!

Honestly!! Burning books??? What sort of sacrilege is that? Especially by those who maybe a few hundred years ago would have been heading for a similar fate… chased by villagers with pitchforks…

And I read comment after comment…

And I gave thanks that I bought it in a time before reviews…

Though actually… now I think about it… I’ve never made a decision to buy or not buy based on a review as I’m bloody lazy and who has time to read all that… there’s an epidemic of them and even reviews of reviews…I digress… I often do…

But, anyway! I waded my way through this thread and I laughed louder and louder…

I could understand where all the comments were coming from and I could even understand why it had put someone off reading tarot for nearly 20 years…

But… I don’t read books in order or as instructed… So… I did start at chapter one… and my head started to fill with all the pomp and ceremony involved and I thought…. really? this is going to take an eternity… and then it said that the book had to be followed in strict order and worked through card by card… so I did what any relatively sane person would do and I skipped straight to the last chapter and skimmed backwards… because I had cards in hand and I wanted to read there and then…

And there, tucked away in the back (which I’m guessing a lot of people missed because they dumped the book by 2nd or 3rd chapter…) there was my quantum leap…

Visualise your card and make it as big as a door and step inside… (or words loosely to that effect)

Bingo! I was in! This was easy peasy… No different to all those hours spent with Alice in Wonderland… Just slip inside and have a chat!

And I’ve done that ever since…

I’ve always been cautious about following books to the very letter… ever since Mr S showed me this many years ago…

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The Secret Rituals of the Golden Dawn by R.G. Torrens

See… the thing is with following things to the letter, is that you need to already know what you’re doing…

Mr S will often laugh at these pages and tell me of those who he knew, those who he had heard brag that they’d performed this… to the VERY letter…

So… a question for our wrangler…

Morgan… What do you think? Typo? Or Crowley humour?

To exit… you may go West or head to the Esat…

Boiiinnnggg!!!

 I’M GONE!

😀

Hop now!

Arwen Lynch or Joanne Sprott will be there to catch you 😀

Or maybe you’ll land in the safety net of the mister last…

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Change of a dress…

XXI The World (c)Jordan Hoggard

XXI The World
(c)Jordan Hoggard

I’ve been feeling a lot of shifts and turns lately… not only in my writing but also in my life in general and things that are further afield…

It feels to be a time where many things have come full circle or have been taken to their furthest limits…

Which means it’s time to explore a few new things…

I’ll still be writing on here with mostly Mystereum Musings…

But that playground is starting to feel way too small now and restrictive…

So… I’ve set up a sister blog…

No Fixed Abide…

Where I’ll be writing whatever I so choose…