All The Swords Came Out to Play…

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To be perfectly honest… I was going to skip this one out… I saw the topic and thought… Speak to the dead? Pffft!!! I’ve had enough hassle these past few months trying to communicate with the supposedly living… Anyway… I left it a while and I got the urge to join the hop… and then it happened again… A couple of hops back, my youngest walked in and gifted me that 5 leaf clover just as I signed up… This time, my middle son walked in…

MUM!!! I just found this…. It’s for you…

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I rolled it around in my hands and thought to myself… I wonder who this belonged to…

But whoever… Why has it turned up now?

What is it Karen, what have you locked away and left forgotten… or maybe what is it that needs to be closed?

Oh dear… and then the voices started…

I could hear him… departed soul… following me around the house…

Walking behind me…

Whispering into my right ear…

Now people often ask me if I talk to dead people and I LOL and answer…

Dead people talk to me… But I don’t answer them! I’m not freakin’ crazy! 😀

Besides… Jeez… form a queue corpses.., I’ve got enough shiz to deal with, with live critters…

So I spent a few days ignoring the chatter…

Until… OH NO! No…no…NO!

Enough was enough…

And old ghost boy crossed my final frontier and followed me into the toilet!

FRED!!! Go R.I.P.

and let me pee I.P.!!!

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Now then young lady! What you want to do is get down off of your high horse…

Great! He’s back… my Grandfather who was Militant with Salvation and with a quote for everything and everything in a quote…

Now… I joke about that every so often and most people assume I had the Bible beaten into me…

But that is not so… Yeah… He quoted aplenty  but seldom was it scripture…

The high horse one… that was a frequent flyer… so much so that maybe it should have been a pegasus!

Then over and over…

Manners maketh the man…

I used to stick my tongue out at that one!

But his most oft used quote was…

never a borrower nor a lender be

and that’s the one that he’d been spouting at me all week…

FRED!!! Will you please go away?

NO! What ails ye child?

Really… you really want to know?

YES

Ok… but you’re not going to like it…

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OK… so I fell for the silver tongue of a smooth talking Prince Charming and he owes me quite a considerable chunk of money…

Go on…

Ok… It’s been going on for months and every time I chase it up, it goes one of either two ways…

He pours out sweet words of reassurances  and make promises that fall apart and fail to deliver and vanish like snow on the desert sand and this leaves me screaming in anger at myself – Why did you fall for that Bovine Soliloquy?

Or…

He becomes hostile and attacks and accuses me of being unhinged and unreasonable and out of line and it leaves me grieving for the friend I once thought I had…

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So… Willful Sprite… I won’t quote at you but instead I’ll ask you a question…

You seek Justice… but what will it take to bring the lightness back to your heart and the glow back to your soul?

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Well Fred… that is a painful question…

But the way that I feel now, is that there is nothing making me feel good about being right and to hold this person to account feels like taking a vulnerable child hostage… Sure… I could swish his head off in one fell stroke… But what victory is there in taking down a weak opponent… someone who feels too tired and incapable of delivering what they have promised even if in their heart they mean it…

I think it’s time to lay down my sword and pick up a pen and write off that debt… to think of it as a gift goodbye, it’s time to put as much time and space between us as possible and gradually the hurt will heal and I will go away wiser and sharper and focused and know in future to be like the Heron and look for what lies below the surface…

And him… well I hope that he picks up his sword and heeds the call to action and starts to work towards becoming what he is capable of being… that he grows to be King of his hamlet…

What do you think Fred? Have you got a quote for me?

Yes… Will you finally listen?

Yes… go on… tell me what a fool I have been…

Karen my girl, I tell you this…

Sanity thy name is woman!

You know… my Grandfather is a lot funnier now he’s dead! 😀

I may chat to him more often…

This conversation was brought to you via the medium of  – Tarot of the Hidden Realm

Off you go now… see you on the other side…

😀

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12 thoughts on “All The Swords Came Out to Play…

  1. Ha, I’ve had that! Well, not the ghost following me into the loo/John ;D but the friend/brother who borrowed money with promises he never followed up on. It being my brother, or maybe just cos I didn’t have a Fred to give me good advice, I loaned him money three times, and wrote the debt off three times, before I swore that enough was enough :/

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  2. I love the Hidden Realm deck! And the key your son found is very cool. Maybe it unlocks a treasure chest with just the amount that silver tongued shirker took you for, plus a little for your pain and suffering. 🙂

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    • I’m also loving the Hidden Realm… I’ve not used it an awful lot to date. I bought it because I fancied a borderless deck and it caught me eye… when it came I was quite surprised to see so many faces that look like people I know…
      The key may or may not unlock some treasure… who knows… I think things tend to square out in the long run one way or another… 😉

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