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The Magic of Images

Welcome to the latest Tarot Blog Hop… Joy Vernon threw down the gauntlet with this one!

Ah! Magic and tarot… I’ve always had a kind of haphazard relationship here and to be honest I’m more Jonathan Strange than Mr Norell… I don’t have a problem with structured and studied magic per se… it’s more that I’m basically inept at following rituals… invariably resulting in me accidentally setting fire to something or another… A new rug in the house is a dead give away of nocturnal shenanigans that have gone awry… When I dabble in magic it’s invariably a rumbling from within that rises to the surface and takes on a life of its own… Or often a little joke with myself that I’ve laughed at so hard that it’s found its way into reality… One thing I have learned the hard way is that it’s not a good idea to throw your arms into the air and shout “Hit me with your best shot!” … that’s a phrase that launched me onto a 2 year long rollercoaster of a ride with a lengthy hangover to boot…

I’m not fond of using words in magic… it seems too fraught with too many potential pitfalls and besides, I don’t want folks overhearing… I often work with images and if I’ve done a Tarot reading for a particular reason then I may draw something that I can leave laying around to keep my thoughts on track without it being an image that will invite intrusion or nosy questions from the curious… That’s a kind of wordless process where my mind floats and I forget my thoughts until the answers appear… and when I have the answers then the image is put away…

Sometimes I do use Tarot images… often if looking at my birth chart as the images give voice to the planets… I do have a bit of a predilection for making Thoth Hybrids as the underlying geometry links them together so mesmerisingly… These are not from my chart but are for the 3 decans of Aries mentioned in the brief for this theme…

I was also quite intrigued by the Picatrix descriptions that were given… this one, in particular, captured my imagination as when I read it, it brought very vividly to mind an old situation that took a strange turn…
“There rises in the third face of Aries, a restless man, holding in his hands a gold bracelet, wearing red clothing, who wishes to do good, but is not able to do it. This is a face of subtlety and subtle mastery and new things and instruments and similar things. This is its form.”
  • 4 of Wands
  • Venus will be in the third face of Aries this year from May 26, around 10 a.m. until 1:26 a.m. on June 6.
  • To achieve subtlety and subtle mastery and new things and instruments and similar things”

I decided to draw an image and let my mind float…I lost a couple of hours or so and from my first thoughts, my mind fell into free association football until I’d forgotten what I’d been thinking about… I drew this weeks back and it’s been sat there not knowing what would be written…

 

So… interestingly and somewhat cagily as I’m not revealing details here… over the last week or so I’ve had tides of information flood my way… bringing answers to questions that I’d pondered during this drawing… they seem to be appearing in reverse free fall as there is still no answer to the question at the top of the list but being as the time period for this picatrix has not yet come into play… I guess I’ll have to leave things running for a few more weeks…And… I won’t be revealing the outcome as although I may well be a haphazard magician… I do know that you don’t give away the prestige… 😉

Go visit my neighbours, they may be more forthcoming…

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Flying The Reiki Nest…

Welcome to the latest Reiki Blog Hop
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THEME: The Importance of Being Earnest
Jay Cassels set the theme for this hop, he offered the following prompt:
This month’s topic is about our relationship with Reiki, and also our relationships with clients, students and ourselves. Consider that for every fantastic experience there has been some not so fantastic, and for every amazing teacher there is one that hasn’t been, so reach into your heart/soul space and explore in your entry the relationship that you have with Reiki, where has it has taken you.
Ok… so let’s see where this takes me… I know it says ‘Reiki’ and this may be on topic or it could be wildly off as when I think of Reiki, the way that my brain hears that is universal life force and so although I’ve had the ups and downs in the Reiki community, I’m not really feeling the urge to go back and dissect old ground… and instead I’ll spread my wings into relationships with the world at large… because after all… aren’t we all supposed to be one big global community?
So… the importance of being earnest… I’m all for speaking your truth but over the last few years and it feels especially so over the last year or so… this speaking your truth feels to have been hijacked and perverted and become a phrase that’s bandied around as an excuse for abject rudeness… Let’s put aside all the fiascos in politics of late as hey man! I don’t have the mental real estate to deal with that right now… ok… I probably do but I’m using that as a segue to launch into just a few of my least favourite things… I’m constantly flabbergasted that never before have there been so many ways to communicate with so many people yet communication is done so badly… I’ve got a whole list of bugbears here but I’ll try and be mindful and try to avoid making my reader feel like they’re being held captive… though of course if I did ramble the whole list then you may fell victim to Stockholm syndrome and never want to leave… but bear with me… I’m writing this at 3:00 am so I’m just going to go with the first 3 things that come off the top of my head in what may end up as an incoherent ill thought out ramble but hey… let’s see what happens…
Radical self-care
Oh yes… now this one really takes the biscuit… I absolutely understand the need for self-care but hey! Ranty tirades and petulant stomping about asserting your personal boundaries and cries of puh-lease! do me the courtesy of respecting me and my space…
Well, sweety… your space ends where my nose begins… so do us all a favour and pull your crown chakra outta your base chakra and go do your self-care to your heart’s content… well out of my face…
Like-minded people
No! Just stop it! There’s nothing that hits my ears in a more shrill way than this phrase… this is beyond fingernails being dragged over chalkboards… Like minded people… isn’t it great to hang out with like- minded people? No, actually it sucks… I’m not an intentionally antagonistic person (except for the times when I am…) but I much prefer the company of people who can argue the toss without getting butthurt… Surrounding yourself in an echo chamber of like-minded people feels like a slow and stifling death… a desiccation of creativity sucked dry by excess positivity that bolsters the lacklustre and mediocre… This is why I quit teaching adult basic education… compulsory cheer-leading ignoring reality… expecting to be in collusion with unrealistic goals, and no recognition of limitations… The fact of the matter is that there are some things in life that require aptitude and talent and no amount of positive thinking and surrounding yourself with people who agree with your every word is going to change that… trust me… I’ve tried! I’ve been swimming lengths and focusing on getting gold at the next Olympics… the sad fact is the best I’m going to achieve is to manage to look as though I’m not drowning…
Oh… but if you disagree with one of the like-minded then you join the ranks of …
Haters
Oh well… obviously you are no-one until you have haters… Really? See from my cynical standpoint it often looks like an underhanded way to flog your shit… summon your minions… boost your sales without trying to look as though you are overtly selling… From another equally cynical standpoint… get over yourself! This phrase along with troll makes me gip… it seems that it’s often a lazy way to shut down a difference of opinion… I’m sure there are genuinely asshats out there who deserve the moniker but to start #hittingthehashtags like grannies with handbags trying to barge their way to the best pickings at the jumble sale… give me a break…
So where does all this take me with regards to Reiki… well there used to be a time when I would try to remember all 5 precepts… now I have them all condensed to one…
Ok… granted… today I’ve probably failed…
But tomorrow I’ll try to keep it peachy :*
Click on a link to visit my neighbours…

Palming Aces…

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Welcome to the latest Tarot Blog Hop, wranlged by Arwen Lynch Poe, who posed the question:

How can I best foster the energy of the Aces in my life?
My thoughts leading to a spread went roughly like this:
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Smith-Waite Tarot Deck ~ Centennial Edition ~ (c) U.S. Games Systems. Inc.

Ok… so whip your Aces out of the pack and lay them to one side for now.
From the majors, pick out The Empress, The Wheel, The World, The Sun and The Magician… place these as imaginary fingers going from left to right as shown above with The Empress as the thumb to The Magician sat as the pinky… In the palm of the hand, place The Tower…
Next, select the Ace that you want to work with… place the Ace in the palm over The Tower and imagine that it is a seed that is going to be cracked open… visualise it breaking apart…
Now… place a card at each finger and much like the 3 Magi or the good fairies that visited Sleeping Beauty… imagine each card that is laid down as being a gift bestowed by the Major…
So you might say…
I am The Empress and I give to you the gift of the 8 of Swords…
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Smith-Waite Tarot Deck ~ Centennial Edition ~ (c) U.S. Games Systems. Inc.

 So here are the cards I pulled for myself:
The Ace of Swords was chosen… the question relates to a creative project but the Ace of Wands does not feel to be the best fit here as the fun creative part has been done and now it comes to the brutal editing…
So… In brief…
I am The Empress and I give to you the gift of the 8 of Swords…
The ability to wiggle free of perceived restrictions and the means to find your way out of the corner that you feel that you’ve backed yourself into…
I am The Wheel and I give to you the gift of the 6 of Cups…
A reminder to return to the original source and exchange of ideas and the ability to find the patterns and cycles…
I am The World and I give to you the gift of the 7 of Pentacles…
This one made me laugh somewhat as every time I’ve thought about this project recently, the words that come to mind are – ughhh… it’s just withering on the vine… So this feels to be a timely kick up the ass to give me the strength and patience to reap what has been sown before it does indeed shrivel away…
I am The Sun and I give to you the gift of the Queen of Cups…
I’ll help you to bring back and restore that loving feeling!
I am The Magician and I give to you the gift of the 9 of Pentacles…
Let’s finish this spell and bring things to a fruitful ending… money’s not really the issue here… I’ve been speaking to The Empress and we both agree it’s time for you to complete this so you can cut free and move on to the next task…
And speaking of moving on…
 I have neighbours either side waiting to hear from you 🙂
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Perpending Polygnosis…

Welcome to the latest Reiki Blog Hop
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THEME: Reiki, Spirituality, and Religion
How does Reiki mesh with, augment, replace, or fulfil your spiritual or religious philosophy and practice (or lack thereof)?
This is a subject that over the years, I’ve given a great deal of thought to… I was raised under the notion that there are three things that you should never discuss in polite company – sex, religion and politics…  luckily I seldom keep polite company 😉 and you’re here now in my space so I’m going to shoot the breeze…
I remember being at school around age 12? 13? and I was never a fan of writing down notes and frequently I would ask questions in an attempt to sway the teacher off course and keep them talking for as long as possible… Using this ploy, I discovered that my History teacher was colour blind.. My English teacher knew how to set a trap to catch alligators… My Science teacher was building a boat… and many other things that slip my mind, but one thing that has always firmly stayed was the words of my Religious Education teacher when I asked her what her beliefs were. She told me in a very matter of fact way that her role was to impart a Religious Education and that if she was a teacher worth her salt then I would never have any detailed knowledge of what her personal beliefs were…
It was something that struck a deep chord and certainly years on and working as a holistic therapist and reading tarot, it still resonates with me as I feel that I am there to help people explore their own thoughts rather than impress mine upon them… And living in the town that I live, where we boast of having Britain’s most multi-cultural high street, I speak to people with all manner of beliefs and backgrounds… People often assume I hold certain beliefs due to the type of work I do, other people are less assuming and will ask… My typical response it that I am of No Fixed Abide…
Or sometimes I will say that I am a lapsed Scientist…
I don’t consider myself to be Spiritual, mainly because I want to know what your definition of that is before I will either confirm or deny… I don’t consider myself to be religious as I don’t actively practise a faith… yet I feel that some kind of vestigial religious thought is in my DNA…
Am I a skeptic? Well again… that all depends on the mood I’m in! I have a degree of skepticism in that I don’t openly embrace any and all woo that gets thrown at me, yet I dislike the kind of Science mind that dismisses out of hand the existence of anything beyond the known, the measured and the tangible…
I’m all for Science when it dispells dangerous quakery…But Science for the sake of Science that becomes mean spirited and soul sucking and destroying of magic… no! stop it!

I watched a program the other day as Professor Brian Cox was on there plugging his new series… I can’t help but watch him, for a couple of reasons… ok firstly, yes I’m shallow and he’s easy on the eye! (Ooops!! TMI thoughts… there’s two out of the three… 😀 should I go for the hat trick and toss out some Brexit commentary… ) But also because he is very vocal and renowned for being anti-woo… yet often when he talks, I hear things that would fill a fluffy bunny’s heart with rainbow arcs of glee and glitter! But he talks science, science… and more science… Yet… somehow he retains a childlike sense of awe and wonder…And then he only went and did it(SQUEEE!!)… he said something along the lines of:
Seeing something in nature and looking at it everyday and describing the beauty of it… that’s Science… doing the same thing every day and recording beauty… that’s what Science is!

I laughed so hard! I thought… Brian! Is it really?! Oh! bless you, you sweet man with your PhD! Science?? Get out of the closet man!!

So… again I found myself wondering about what my beliefs are and a single gnosis seems somewhat arrogant to me, yet an absolute agnosis seems to kill my soul and I pondered and perpended on some more until a word started to form in my mind…

Polygnosis…

 I wasn’t sure if the word existed so I asked the Google oracle and it gave me
Polygnosticism is a pluralistic outlook which espouses that all individuals’ unique ideas about the divine, about what is sacred, and about how to approach these matters in practice are valid and significant for them. It is also a non-absolutist view which holds that no characterization of the divine or the sacred is universal (valid for everyone), and that no known divinities or sacred qualities can be called objective (existing independently of subjective perceptions).
Read the full article HERE. Polygnosis sits well with all parts of me…
So… how does this all tie in with my Reiki?
Well, I guess it wafts and weaves in and out, in much the same way that my Science brain still likes to roll theories around…
Recently I went for an MRI scan and it was not something that I was looking forward to as every now and then I can get a flutter of claustrophobia. So, I find myself in a huge machine having to lie perfectly still for a good half an hour and then this is when my mind starts to play with me… Now knocking on for 20 years ago, I found myself sat in a lecture being given by someone who practised Magnet Therapy, now I know there are people who swear by this and my attitude is still pretty much along the polygnostic highway in that, if it works for you and you’re not harming anybody else, then you use it… However… I did take exception to the way the person described how it worked… the information given was that blood contains iron and so placing a magnet next to it causes the capillaries to spin… Well… I’m sorry but no way could I let that one go as FFS!!! NO! NO! NO! Blood contains haemoglobin which is a compound containing iron but no, it’s not magnetic and even if it was why for the love of all things (un)holy would anyone want their capillaries to spin?! That kind of nonsense calls for a scientific foot stomp! So… back to the scanner… I’m corpse like in there and they made a big deal about the noise levels but they failed to tell me that the bottom plate that I was laying on would get warm… I felt this heat slowly starting to build and I thought to myself… OH… what if… what if… that magnet therapy person was right… maybe my capillaries are spinning… maybe all my blood is going to get ripped out of my body… maybe… oh… no… maybe they set it to microwave by mistake and I’m slowly cooking and I’m going to burst and then I’m going to have chunks of me dripping down and landing on me and it’s going to take forever to get it out of my hair… what am I going to do? At which point I thought… what you’re going to do Karen, is get an ‘effing grip!! You’re going to give yourself some Reiki and reel this nonsense in… and when I use Reiki, I tend to see colours but in an MRI scanner, this is how it came through…
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That kind of surpised me… as I am so used to receiving colours but it did the trick and calmed the mind…
I tend to often use Reiki in situations that I ‘d sooner not be in…
Here’s another painting…
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That one is from a trip to the dentist to have a rather problematic toothed pulled… these are the colours that poured over me as the work was being done…
And going from MRI scanners to Reiki scanning, here are a couple of snapshots of the pain I’ve been getting with an ongoing back problem… The first one is at its worse and the second was how it felt after I’d received Reiki from one of my students…

I’m still not entirely sure whether or not I’ve addressed the theme and answered the question…but I’ll continue into another digression and drift into Astrology… See… I told you I spent a lot of time mulling on this topic… this is my notebook from a few months back… Is it my spirituality? Is it my nature? Is it all hoo hah and I’m merely a product of nurture?

I’m just going to drop this here…

astro dispositions
Pretty much all of my chart falls in 9th house (beliefs) and 10th house (public image/recognition) and all of my planets link back to Venus which sits on my MH… so I’ve ran around my dispositions and as a summary sentence of my whole chart, I get…

My sense of aesthetic brings all my thoughts together harmoniously in a way that I can communicate to serve others seeking deeper meanings.

Yeah… I think I’m still paddling in the polygnostic pool…
Has there been a neo-renaissance yet…
I think the world would be a sweeter place if sometimes people just said:
I describe
and left it at that…
Click on a link to visit my neighbours…

Noodling on Nodes…

I’ve been studying Astrology for around a year now… and I’m a reluctant study at the best of times as I don’t like to sit down and keep still and keep to routines and timetables… so, it has amused me greatly that during the course, my lessons have landed in my inbox… yet the answers arrive via my environment…

My latest assignment was to look at the aspects of my nodes… I have North Node in Aries and South Node in Libra… and they are unaspected.. they are free range and roaming at large… I’m not going to bore you with lengthy ramblings about my life lessons and past life issues and excessive naval gazing, but I will relate one small thought… that I need to toss out the Libran weighing up and tap in more to the Arian impulsiveness…

So… when I found myself sat in a room with a guitarist and the word noodling came up… then my little Astro heart filled with glee as a-ha… this is a perfect route to off road my studies…

And out came the ink…

I’m not going to lay down my astro findings per se…

I will share a little of how to noodle…

Noodling is focused randomness…

To explore through seemingly random notes (or pen strokes)…

To allow trial and error and intuition to roll out, rather than relying on the rigidity of rules and systems…

To wonder rather than needing to know…

To let your hand play unbound…

To explore…

To feel a pattern emerge…

To notice the cycles, repeats and patterns that occur naturally and to expand them…

To let your thoughts spark!

To support new ideas with things you already know…

To build up your muscle memory to make your mind quicker…

The funny thing is… I do this all the time… It is my natural impulse to explore the word in this way… I have done it since before I was even knee high to a grasshopper… though I tend to call it scribbling… or sometimes doodling… I’d placed little value on it…

Yet suddenly… calling it Noodling… allowed me to see it with new eyes…

It’s funny what a change of name can do…

😉

 

 

When Less is More…

I’m just starting to get back onto my feet after being forced into complete rest… and it’s given my quite a lot of time on my hands to idle muse… It slowly dawned on me just after the last lunar eclipse that the first twinges of the pain that was going to lay me up began way back in April 2014… I ignored it at that point and didn’t really think much of it… with hindsight, maybe that is when I should have taken some rest voluntarily… as from that point, one way or another, series of events seemed to conspire to keep me desk bound rather than out and about on the hoof…

I pondered more over the recent blood moon and started thinking … On April 15, 2014, there was a total lunar eclipse… the first of four consecutive total eclipses in a series, a second one took place on October 8, 2014, third one on April 4, 2015 and the remaining one took place on September 27, 2015…

It’s with a wry smile that I now note that each of these dates in one way or another, tied in to removing certain things in my life that had turned rotten… times of cutting ties and connections… movement away from dead weights and things that had been dragging me down…

Right through that, most of that period, life felt to be a Sisyphean task… right up until a couple of months ago when the pain in my back grew so fierce and the muscles went into intense spasm every time that I moved, that I had no other option than to give in and lie down… to rest up… calm the pain and let it heal…

I don’t like being still… I don’t like being indoors… so the frustration and the thought of being laid up indefinitely almost had me in tears… I started to wonder how I would cope with it… and decided to turn it to my advantage and actually use the time to organise the chaos that has sprung up all around me since I started playing around with art just over 3 years ago…

Also, there’s a secret project that I’m working on, that I realised I had a few gaps in my knowledge as to how to turn that into a reality, so this would be a good time to learn some new tricks…

Now that brought me some laughter as often people suggest to me that I should make a deck and I say… yeah… maybe… if I get an idea… and then I’ll wander off and scratch my head and birth ideas and then kill them off…

Going through my artwork over the last year, I have all sorts of varied things going on but as I laid everything out… I started to notice something… there within all my experimental pieces was a consistent flow of pieces in encaustic wax… piece after piece that I’d made… each one made when I had something other on my mind… a problem to solve or a thought to resolve… an unease that needed soothing… idle meditations… all sitting in a pile…

I counted them up… there were 60 of them… the by-products of struggling with Sisyphean tasks… and somewhere in my head a little valve lit up… and that was the birth of The Waxing Oracle

So…I pull a card… yes! very funny! given I’m spending a lot of time sitting on ice of late… but then sitting frozen gives plenty of time to look for the patterns emerging…

I’m going to meditate on that further and consider the paradox of less effort yielding more results…

Though maybe I already know the answer…

As a good friend of mine recently said…

When you look for your lost pen, it’s always under your bum!

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Hoofing Off…

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For this blog hop, Maureen Aisling Duffy-Boose set the theme with instructions to “decide for yourself which card in the Tarot most corresponds with your own interpretation of the second harvest of the Autumnal Equinox, or the energies and focus of the Celtic Deity Mabon, whose festival is celebrated on this date. And, with that in mind, you are invited to CREATE A TAROT CARD which will express in your own fashion this meaning.”

Now being a September equinox baby, I do get uber self-indulgent this time of year… I don’t do New Years Resolutions on 31st Dec/Jan 1st… I do them now… in my own little quiet space… September starts and as the kids go back to school, I gather up my scattered marbles and look back over the previous year and then think about where I want to head next…

This year… I’m having to weigh things up with a lot more thought than usual…

I’ve been laid low for quite a while with an injury to the soft tissues around my sacral-illiac joint. I’ve spent months trying every trick I know to sort it and getting frustrated that nothing works… so eventually I throw my hands up in despair and head to the G.P. and I get referred to a physio…

So… it turns out… the back is not the problem but the side effect… she informs me that I have one leg longer than the other (as do most folks…) that I was born with an equinus foot ( I idly wonder if it has anything to do with my Sagittarius Ascendant…) and then she demonstrates a normal gait, followed by a demonstration of my gait with an over emphasis that leaves me thinking – F@ck me! I’m Kaiser Soze!

But then it gets really interesting as I’m told that all my life I’ve been out of balance and that my body has been shifting and compensating to the point where it refuses to tolerate any more… she goes through my treatment plan, which starts with complete rest, lots of ice… moving into heat treatment, then finding the balance between the two… constructing arch supports and heel raises to bring me back into alignment and the killer blow…

She gives me a piece of paper with the words:

Do not do anything that you do not HAVE to do 

I waddle home and as I lay on bags of frozen peas, it occurs to me – Hey! She’s just written my blog  post for me…

Oh… but what shall I draw… so… being off my feet gives me time on my hands… which I spend looking at my feet and I look at the shape of my sole and I think… ahhh… I know that shape… perfect…

So… I went from this…

Hermit Sole Man

To this…

AutumnalEquinoxHermit Karen Sealey

And now I’m going to play my

Do not do anything that you do not HAVE to do ‘ card

So… I’ll let you jog along with making up lame puns and running gags, while I limp off with the Virgoan Hermit and relearn to walk…

I’m imaging not so much walking into a cave but walking through a mountain and re-emerging in the Spring Equinox… hopefully throwing off the cloak and dancing like an Ace of Wands… though to be honest… any improvement would be good, such as simply regaining my sense of balance, as right now, I’m hobbling around like a T-Rex with a mogadon shuffle…

I may or may not be exaggerating… 😛

Ok! Visiting time is over…

Scoot!

I’m sure my lovely neighbours Louise and Ania will look after you nicely.

🙂

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