Getting Some Retro Perspective…

Merc Rx

So… it’s that time again… yeah… who needs an emphemeris when you’ve got a fb newsfeed… Mercury has gone retrograde… Let the blaming and shaming commence…

Now personally… I don’t care much either way which way Mercury is facing… I’m often beset with electrical malfunctions and rarely do they coincide with Merc Rx… frequently they occur when I am upset or out of kilter…

However… I do get a phenomenon that occurs that I find intriguing… As Merc turns Rx I very often get an old email reappear on my mobile as if it’s just been sent… This time I didn’t get an email… I did however get an old photo appear from 2 years ago… I looked at the photo and I remembered the day and then also I remembered an email conversation I had that day…

Now… I’m not entirely sure if it’s down to my laziness or down to in the past having to keep emails on file for 6 years… but I keep pretty much all of my emails…sure I delete spam and other stuff that I know for definite I won’t need for anything…

So… I had a rummage in my email to this day two years ago and found that conversation… and I smiled… and I looked at this day three years ago and found another email conversation with that same person that made me LOL as they proudly boasted of qualities that email conversations this time a year ago thoroughly exposed as just simply not existing… It takes a while to see someone’s full true colours… and this time last year I was blessed with a not so spectacular display… I got a full guided tour behind the bullshit to discover… well… you don’t need to know what I discovered…

This year I sit with Merc Rx and I ask him… so … words of advice…

He says… yeah… sure… remember this… you can never step in the same dog turd twice…

Oh how we both laughed 😀

Why do you read Tarot?

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Recently.. I undertook a University Challenge…

Yup… The time for Summer Balls and Pure & Blessed is on the road and Sealey is reading Tarot at Jesus College Cambridge…

Now just that in and of itself is enough to fill my little tarot heart fit to burst with little (OK MASSIVE!!!) Squees of GLEE!!! 🙂 😀 😀

I take a perverse delight in that many many moons ago as a 6th form student my form tutor took me to one side and suggested that I should consider applying to OxBridge…

I stared back in wonderment… I can’t see myself there…

This kindly tutor placed her hand upon my shoulder and said… no? go ask your subject tutors…

Still not convinced… I shuffled off… thought a while and then thought OK… Biology is my best subject… I’ll start there and if that falls flat then I only embarrass myself just the once…

OH! Hahahaha! OH!!! Silly girl!!! OxBridge?!!! You’ll be lucky to scrape a pass… set your sites where they belong…

So… I hung my head and slipped my dreams into a noose and let them slowly die… and I head off to Swansea… because… well… main reason… it was next to the beach!

As it happens… I aced an A… but by then… who really cared… I was disenchanted and dropped out before I even ever dropped in…

And as it turned out… I didn’t much care for University… I found it way too tight a straight jacket… and I wasted away my time in wonderful ways that eventually lead me to where I am today…

A woman full of laughter fielding questions from all walks of life…

Ha! Questions from PhD research scientists, who sit at my table as skeptics and wonder why I laugh rather than try and postulate some kind of mystic response that justifies my beliefs…

But you know… I know enough Science to know I’ll never know the Science of knowing…

And my impish nature nods and tips a wink and fully groks Science humour and delights in jokes the likes of which are  told by  one of my heroes… Prof Steven Hawking…

What is a black hole?

Something you find in a black sock!

Where was I?… Oh yes… sat across the table from a lady asking me – OK! I’m no longer skeptic! You’ve told me enough to make me consider that there is much more to tarot… But my real question now – How on earth does a very intelligent, highly articulate and well educated woman end up being a tarot reader?

Again I laugh and I say… you really need to meet the right people… there are very many intelligent tarot readers… And it’s much the same as why you ended up in Science…

We like to ask questions…

But today… I really do squee overload as I’ve just came across this photograph…

Who knows really, why we went in to tarot?

Ha! But it’s moments like this that make me stay…

Getting to a gig and seeing your most well worn and beloved deck transformed and painted out large…

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Back drop at Jesus College May Ball… Inspired by Tarot in The Land of Mystereum

And that’s just about as close to tarot heaven that I can get…

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The Flip Side of The Coin…

6 of Pentacles (c) Jordan Hoggard 2010

6 of Pentacles
(c) Jordan Hoggard 2010

I’ve always been quite partial to this card and seen it as wonderfully flowing energy of give and take… and in my head, it does roll around like this…

But interesting things happen sometimes in conversations and you get a whole new view through another’s eyes…

A year or so ago… I don’t know… I don’t remember time… I forget the when, but I always remember the where and the who… I was sat with someone who was new to tarot and they were flicking through my deck…

Who are the deniers?

Pardon?

The deniers…

No… not deniers… deniers as in coins… French for coins…

No… they are deniers… They deny things…

What are they denying?

Well… you see that big parachute full of holes that they are holding… well they have both made holds in both their side and the other person’s side and they both deny they did anything and blame the other… yet the biggest holes are the ones that they made themselves in their own side…

I listened in interest and pondered on how I’d managed to raise such a cynical son… and quietly blamed his opposite view to mine as his Pisces being poles apart from my Virgo…

Yes…That’s an interesting perspective but I like my version better I said and pushed it out of mind…

Or so I thought… more accurate would be to say to the back of my mind as every so often, it does bubble up back to the surface…

Lol… it just occurs to me that the inside of my head may in fact be a lava lamp… as it morphed back the other day in yet another shape…

I looked at that card and I saw a pool table… the green baize and 6 pockets… or were they balls…

Pockets? Balls? Mmmm…. If you want to be back in the pocket rather than out of pocket then that’s something to need to work out… you gotta be careful where you sink your balls!!

I looked at those 6 of P players and I saw a couple of classy hustlers…

Not all games are played fairly or by the rules…

And sometimes it’s not so much players… as there being a player and the played…

My Pisces son’s view seems far less cynical now… I guess it’s because of the two fish that know how to swim both ways…

So… Heads up givers…

Watch out for the take and take… and don’t get taken by the sharks in the pool…

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Musings on Mystereum Strength… Part 4…

So… this morning I did something for the very first time… I know many people who have done this and I’ve never really fully understood why they do… until now…

I start the day in fine mood and I’m planning what I need to do over the next few days. So on my list of things is an event on Saturday where the dress code is vintage… I put together an outfit and think… OK…. this needs a finishing touch and then I remember this locket…

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And it’s very rare that I wear this and even rarer that I open it and look inside…

Yet today, I opened it… and there sit two photos and on the left is one that gives me a warm smile… On the right… there sits the reason this family heirloom sits mostly in a box…

And usually, I would glance at that photo, fill with nausea, close the trinket tightly shut and toss it aside…

Today I looked at that photo and let it speak… and I lost two hours as memories and conversations held many moons ago replayed like an old movie… and I watched and I listened… and I sat… and then I thought of this…

XX Judgment (c) Jordan Hoggard 2010
XX Judgment (c) Jordan Hoggard 2010

And I heard these words…

‘You are no more at the mercy of your past than you are of old photo albums. Take more good pictures in your imagination!’ Jordan Hoggard

I looked back at that photo, I removed it from where it has dwelt for over 40 years and I did that thing that other people do and I have never done…

I ripped it up…

I ripped it into tiny pieces…

I went out into the garden and threw my arms into the air and with a great big exhale…

tossed those tiny pieces into the sun and wind to be scattered…

I turned to go back into the house and continue my day…

And with a smaller exhale…

 I heard myself say…

FUCK YOU!! That’s the last time you ripple my pond…

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Musings on Mystereum Strength… Part 3…

Often when these cards come up in readings, people will say to me ‘Oh Look! She’s going with the flow…’

And I say – Really?? Is that what you see? And I strangle down the urge to scream,as those words ‘going with the flow’ grate on me like nails being dragged down a chalkboard…

Why do those words annoy me so much?

Because I’ve heard them too many times… some sort of dippy hippy mantra, churned out and chanted… which always feels to me to be a lame ass excuse for not taking actions, responsibility or accountability for choices that have been made…

Or then there’s the way it gets milked by some… you know those types who ask for favours from people who don’t like to go against the flow, because they know they won’t say ‘no’ however unreasonable their requests are… Artists, Musicians, Holistic Therapists, Tarot Readers all attract a lot of milkers… I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve had phone calls along the lines of – Will you come and work for free at my event, it will be excellent exposure for your business…

Really, how so?

Oh… well, the more you promote it to your followers, the more people will come and you will get more business.

What??? You want me to work for free and promote your event and bring my clients, who come to me anyway and pay me… Sorry… How exactly is that good exposure for my business?

Ok… I’ll rein this in, as I seem to have gone on off on a bit of a mad ramble… Ha!! How’s that for going with the flow? 😀

BUT… I see a big difference between ‘going with the flow’ and ‘being in the flow’

Going with the flow or Being in the flow... Your choice?

Going with the flow or Being in the flow… Your choice?

See… I look at that card from the Osho Zen tarot – Going with the flow… and I’m not even sure if that person is dead or alive… just that that body will wash up somewhere eventually, or maybe wind up as fish food…

When I look at Strength in 4 & 6 of Cups… There’s nothing wishy washy about her. I  imagine her feet are firmly planted on the river bed and there is no danger of her being swept away. I see a calm watchfulness to her and an awareness of her surroundings, carefully weighing up each option as it arises. I’m sure she’d go in the direction of the current if that was what she wanted, but I’m guessing she’d probably swim rather then float. I’m also guessing she’d swim against the tide to get what she wants…

I find it hard to imagine her passively floating like the Osho corpse… In fact now I look  at him again, is he on or under the water? Waving or drowning? And I’m wondering if he’s just bumped his head… Though I can imagine Strength laying like that but I see her out of the water and basking in the sun on that beach to the right, gathering her thoughts before she decides on the best time to go swimming and in which direction… I’m guessing upstream… Resistance training builds a strong core… And have you seen her abs? 😀